Can't stop, won't stop. I must be dreaming.

current time: 7:06 pm

current mood: confused.

current music: Sober- Pink

how is it that you feel like you're on top of the world and feel as though nothing can go wrong...

and then it suddenly hits you. it was all a dream.

it just seems these days i feel i don't know who i am anymore. everything i once knew is out the window. i feel like i don't even understand things anymore. i don't even know who  my real friends are anymore. i feel like i can't trust anyone anymore. and i hate feeling that way.  it just seems like everything gets in the way and ruins everything i thought i loved.

this week had to be possibly one of the worst weeks i've ever had in a long time. i don't feel like myself. even my parents and friends have noticed that something's wrong with me. i've been lashing on everyone for absolutely no reason. i mean i do lash out on people, but only when i have a legitamate reason to do so.

at least i have a few things to look forward to. i go see we the kings on march 7th with tasha and chelsey. then i have my band trip to annapolis, maryland. that should be really fun. then i have my 18th birthday and a week after that i leave for paris. then there's the ap tour, which my mom still hasn't given me a straight answer for yet.

am i missing something? do i really need to be beating myself up over nothing?

i just don't know anymore.

-olivia.

current time: 5:06 p.m.

current music: Coffee Shop Soundtrack- All Time Low

current mood: happy :]

hope everyone had a good new year :] i'm so happy that 2008 is over and put in the past. it was such a crazy year for me. of course, i had my ups and my downs. this year? i'm gonna make my life the best that i know it can be. lemme reflect on some of the good/bad things that happened in 2008:

-met Cobra Starship, and not just Gabe :]

-finally went to Warped Tour after failing to do so for 2 summers in a row

-almost met All Time Low @ Warped, but went to Cobra's set instead

-finally got my license after failing my permit test twice...yeah, i'm retarded.

-had a job (just for the summer though)

-went on the band trip to Virginia Beach, Virginia

-waited in line for 10 hours to see All Time Low

-saw All Time Low three times (Warped, Sellouts Tour, Six Flags)

-became a lot closer with my friends :]

-turned 17

-got my first car with my own money :]

-met There For Tomorrow and The Friday Night Boys :]

-heath ledger died :[

i'm really hoping that 2009 will bring me better things...i mean much better things to be exact. hopefully the things that i hope to accomplish this year ACTUALLY happen this time.

-get tickets to a show and actually go instead of wasting a shitload of money and not even go.

-turn 18 (ahhh!)

-enter my senior year of high school in september (finally!)

-be able to drive to shows with friends

-spend new year's eve in Time Square

-maybe have a boyfriend? idk.

-go to Warped Tour for three dates and actually have the money to do it

-have more amazing times with my friends :]

-whenever a band i love comes to MA or the New England area, go to the show regardless of how far away it is

-go on some road trips

-get a job (grossss)

-band trip to Annapolis, Maryland in April

-then to Paris two weeks later :]

-get through school without wanting to kill myself

-meet All Time Low

-new cd's from All Time Low and Cobra Starship :]

-go to the AP Tour and meet The Maine hopefully lol

-actually lose some weight in time for Annapolis, Paris and Warped :]

yeah...i want a lot out of 2009. it better not let me down lol. ughh i don't wanna go back to school tomorrow > :[

i love these boys :] hopefully i get a chance to meet them this year, that'd make my year so much better.

peace out boy scout :]

-olivia.

current time: 11:13 a.m.

current mood: happy :]

current music: Mr. Winter- The Maine 

merry christmas everyone! i hope everyone enjoys today and spends time with their friends and family. i'm having a pretty good christmas so far. i didn't really get a whole lot of gifts for christmas this year, but the only reason for that is my really big gift is my trip to Paris in the spring :]

from what i did get? i got a new glamour kills shirt, the new Fall Out Boy cd, a bunch of stuff for my paris trip, makeup, new calendar and a necklace. i'm pretty happy with what i got :]

anyways, i'm so happy that all time low got voted band of the year by AP. they totally deserved it. and to the people who say that they don't deserve it? fuck you.

these hands catch fire...
I blur the lines that define who I am and where I'm going to be,
I break down walls and build bridges that span the sea,
These hands catch fire and ignite the things I hold dearest to me,
so what is the consequence,
when I've got the whole world at my finger tips?

AP's band of the year? Life gets crazy.

Thank you.

alex has such a way with words. he makes something so simple, into something so meaningful. i'm so proud of my boys...they totally deserve this award. they work their asses off everyday to please everyone. and still people make fun of them because they're "ugly" or "not talented." you know what i have to say to people like that? fuck you. go spend your useless life making fun of some other band.

now that i got that off my chest? i feel better lol.

i love the cover :] i guess the theme is suppose to be the Fantastic 4 lol.

zack has super strength and (very photoshopped) abs. not that his abs don't already look like that ;]

jack has telekanesis or however you spell that lol

alex is the human torch

and rian has super speed.

i like it :]

merry christmas and a happy new year to everyone :]

-olivia.

time: 12:45 p.m.

mood: confused and content

current music: Miss California- Jack's Mannequin

let's just say i hate living in new england. there. i said it. living in new england totally sucks right now.

one thing i totally do not understand is why the fuck jingle my bells isn't canceled. i texted the girl who was selling me the tickets to the show and she said the roads in connecticut absolutely suck. they're all icy and snowy. i have no idea how in hell the bands are all gonna get there in time. i don't even think that's gonna be feasible...oh well.

people are so retarded if they're still gonna go. i love all time low...but i'm not that retarded to go out and drive 3 hours to connecticut in the snow and ice just to see them. i guess the people who go are gonna get lucky cause they'll be able to meet the bands easier with less people there. fuck them.

i don't even care anymore. i was getting all upset this morning and yesterday about it, and now i realized that i wasted my time getting upset over something i can't control. it's not worth it in the end. i hope the people who go have fun...and know that they're absolutely crazy to go in this weather. i swear to god, i bet you the only people who are gonna go are atl fans who are obsessed with alex and will be screaming "0MG AL3X MARRY M3! I L0V3 Y0U!"

yeah...i'm sure he'll be glad to hear that.

i am pissed in a way cause i wanted to see the friday night boys and there for tomorrow. oh well. there's always next year. i know all time low will definitely go on tour next year cause their new cd comes out in the summer, there for tomorrow is going on tour with we the kings in march and are gonna be on warped. and i just hope and pray that the friday night boys are added to warped cause i loveeeeeee them now.

in the end? i think i'll be okay missing one show. i got to see atl three times this year...front row at six flags on zack's side and being front row at the sellouts tour. i don't think i could ask for much more than that :]

oh how i love all time low :]   happy holidays everyone :]   -olivia.

time- 2:11 p.m.

mood- extremely pissed off

current music: waking up in vegas- katy perry

why does everything bad have to happen to me? seriously. i have the worst luck ever.

jeez god...what the hell did i ever do to you?

[edit;]

time: 4:10

mood: a lot better than before :]

current music: girls do what they want- the maine

things are starting to look better now. my parents are reconsidering letting me go to jingle my bells.

and i feel a lot better than i did a few hours ago, which is a good things. so things are looking up now :]

i just hate fucking new england weather...it ruins everything lol.

-olivia.

current mood: ehh

current music: Punkb*tch- 30H!3

so i got both fall out boy's and the all american rejects new cd's yesterday off limewire lol. i hate doing that normally? but i couldn't wait any longer. fall out boy cd's is soooo much better than infinity on high. the beats are so much catchier and they experimented with more instruments such like trumpets and stuff like that. it sounds so good. so far? my favorite song is Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown on A Bad Bet. it's so fucking catchy, i love it :]

anyways...i'm just gonna do this little random thingy that people have on facebook. good luck with it :]

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line(s) (unless the first line reveals the song title) from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and song title correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game, post your own

1. It's getting late, your eyes are closed and mine are wide awake.

2. I've been trying to write it off. But I'm doing all I can.

3. You have a jump in your step but a rip your rep.

4. My heart ticks in beat with these kids that I grew up with.

5. The city is at war, a place among the young and rich.

6. The time on the clock reads half past four. I'm wide awake and thinking with my pillow on the floor.

7. Back to the street where we began. Feeling as good as lovers can, you know.

8. When she left you were a wreck.

9. Lights out, I still hear the rain. These images that fill my head now keep my fingers from making mistakes.

10. Time to lay claim to the evidence. Fingerprints sold me out.

11. We're getting higher everytime that we love

12. This is a seasonal affair, so be there or be squared.

13. When the moon fell in love with the sun, all was golden in the sky.

14. In the dark, it's getting hard to breathe. Suffocating, somethings wrong, I feel so incomplete.

15. You speak the words like a record in motion

16. Come one, come all to this tragic affair

17. And I thought it would be funny to leave you hanging in suspense

18. I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive, so I'm gonna start over tonight

19. I wonder if you're going down, where we all know. You get lost and then get found

20. They're gonna clean up your looks with all the lies in the books

21. This won't hurt more than a pinch, so pour a drink let's talk it over

22. You've gotta help me out, it's a blur last night

23. The boys they have their eyes all over you

24. S-c-a-n to-d to-the-a-to-the-l-o-u-s can't handle it, can't handle, damn that girl she's scandalous.

25. Baby, take it off. Checkered thighs in a pretty room

26. Mr. Sandman showing his demon, he walks into the room

27. Stop stalling make a name for yourself

28. I took a step back as the room was filling up

29. So take one word you said, you put it in your bed

30. She looked at me and her eyes were watering

31. For what you did me, oh what I'll do you, you get what everyone else gets, you get a lifetime.

32. When you gonna give it up? You're giving me such a rush.

33. The IV and your hospital bed. This was no accident, it was theraputic chain of events

34. You were the only face I'd ever known

35. From ocean to sky, summer and fall, i have been there through it all

36. You've got me poppin' champagne, I'm at it again

37. I"m creepin your way and these sheets aren't stopping me

38. I am outside, and I've been waiting for the sun with my white eyes

39. Is there anybody out there? That wakes up with a bitter taste

40. And we both go down together, we'd stay there forever, just try to get up

41. I should have known better to wait around, why did I come home?

42. Out of the box, out of the kitchen, out of the world she's grown so fearful of

43. Clouds, are marching singing a song just like they do

44. Well you can hide a lot of about yourself, but honey what are you gonna do?

45. Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection

46. Hip swaying, lips lie, like clockwork she's in control

47. Voted most likely to end up to up on the back of a milkbox drink

48. And if your heart stops beating? I'll be wondering, "Did you get what deserve?"

49. She takes her time with the littlest things, love notes reminding me

50. We have to take our clothes off, we have to party all night

good luck :] some of those may be kinda hard if you don't listen to my type of music lol. but anyways, i heard news today that Katy Perry and Travis McCoy are engaged! i'm so happy for her, they're so cute together :]

peace out :]

-olivia.

current mood: happy :]

current music: Ur So Gay- Katy Perry

omg i can't believe that christmas is next thursday. i've done absolutely NO shopping whatsoever. i feel wicked bad cause all of my friends got my presents already, and i haven't gotten them anything. i hate not having money! ughhhh. but luckily? i have over $300 saved in the bank from when i worked with my aunt over the summer. plus i have to pay for my jingle my bells ticket...ahhh! so i have to get my shopping done this week or i'm screwed. luckily i know what everyone in my family wants so it shouldn't be that hard lol.

i'm not really getting anything for christmas this year cause my big big big gift was going to Paris over spring break. i think that's a pretty sweet gift if you ask me :] but my mom is gonna get me a few small things. i already saw one of them today when i was getting the mail. i know she got me the glamour kills shirt that i've been dying for, so i'm pretty pumped :]

so both the All American Rejects's and Fall Out Boy's new cd's come out tomorrow. and guess what?! i won't be able to get them until after christmas cause i need all the money i can get right about now for xmas shopping. gayyyyy.

anyways, i was just thinking about all of the concerts that i've gone to...and i've gone to a lot. i'll show you a list to prove it lol :]

1997

too far back to remember the exact date lol

1. Spice Girls (lol)

2005

2. December 13th: KISS 108 Jingle Ball: Fall Out Boy, Rihanna, Kanye West, The Click Five, The Pussycat Dolls, etc.

2006

3. March 17th: Black Clouds and Underdogs: Fall Out Boy, All American Rejects, Hawthorne Heights, From First To Last, The Hush Sound

4. November 18th:  Nothing Rhymes With Circus: Panic At The Disco, Plain White T's, Jack's Mannequin

2007

5. February 26th: The Black Parade: My Chemical Romance, Rise Against

6. May 8th: The Black Parade (second leg of the tour): My Chemical Romance, Circa Survive

7. June 2nd: Honda Civic Tour: Fall Out Boy, Cobra Starship, The Academy Is..., Paul Wall, +44

8. August 24th: Projekt Revolution: My Chemical Romance, Linkin Park, HIM, Placebo, Taking Back Sunday, MSI, Madina Lake, etc.

9. November 9th: Young Wild Things: Fall Out Boy, Plain White T's, Cute Is What We Aim For, Gym Class Heroes

10. November 15th: Madina Lake, We The Kings, Mayday Parade, Powerspace

11. November 24th: Riot!: Paramore, The Starting Line, The Almost

2008

12. May 9th: Black Parade World Tour: My Chemical Romance, Drive-By, Taking Back Sunday

13. July 23rd: Warped Tour: All Time Low, Cobra Starship, The Academy Is..., Madina Lake, Mayday Parade, We The Kings, Every Avenue, Forever The Sickest Kids, Katy Perry, etc.

14. August 21st: MTVU VMA'S: All Time Low, Tyga

15. October 8th: Sassyback: Cobra Starship, Forever The Sickest Kids, Sing It Loud, Hit The Lights

16. October 31st: Anberlin, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, There For Tomorrow, The Straylight Run

17. November 26th: The Comprimising of Integrity, Mortality and Principles In Exchange For Money: All Time Low, Mayday Parade, The Maine, Every Avenue, The Friday Night Boys

18. December 21st: Jingle My Bells: All Time Low, There For Tomorrow, Ace Enders and A Million Different People, The Friday Night Boys, Valencia, The Color Fred, The Morning Light

yeah...that's a lot of concerts. and there's already a bunch that are coming up at the beginning of next year too. i'll give you some of those that i might possibly go to

2009

The AP Tour (whenever they put the dates out for that lol), Warped Tour on July 21st in Boston and July 12th in Hartford, The Maine, We The Kings, VersaEmerge, The Cab and There For Tomorrow on March 7th.

yeah, i love going to shows i guess. i have no idea how i get money to go to shows. i don't even have a job. i need to get a job...so then i can go to even more shows :]

i can't wait to see what 2009 is gonna bring me :]

happy holidays everyone :D

old school all time low makes me giggle :]

-olivia.

current mood- sick as ever :[

current music: lullabies- all time low

so wednesday was possibly one of the greatest nights of my life. i know i say that a lot, but this time i mean it. my friends and i woke up at 5:50 in the morning and got to the palladium at 7:30. and guess what? we were first in line :] one of the buses was already there, but we couldn't tell if it was all time low's or mayday parade's. i don't think we ever did figure it out. but anyways, the day went by fast in the morning, but then as it started getting closer for the doors to open, it went by sooo fucking slow that i was ready to just run in there without caring who saw me. eventually 5:30 rolled around, and we all bolted inside. i was in charge of getting everyone's merch, which was something that i regret offering to do. i knew i was gonna forget something, but luckily i didn't. Vinny, atl's merch guy loved me. i bought 3 of the Sup Buzznet shirts, one of the red sweatshirts and a tour shirt, and all together? that was well over $100. he just looked at me was like, "omg thank you so much." and i'm just like, "no problem :]." so then i had run over to the maine's merch booth, which was on the other side of the palladium. so i was running across the palladium to get everyone's stuff. i eventually got into the pit and gave everyone their stuff. but then me and two other girls that we had made friends with in line got out of the pit because we all knew pretty well how crazy the pit was gonna be since it was a sold out show. you could barely move. we got out and got a really good spot on the side of the barricade, which also made me uber happy cause it was on zack's side :]

the show went by at a pretty fast pace. first it was the friday night boys, who were amazing. alex came and sang during one of the songs, but i couldn't see him because one of the really fat security guards was in my vision. but ann managed to get really good pictures of alex though, so i'm thankful for that :] then it was every avenue, who were amazing too. the lead singer is like a spitting image of martin from boys like girls. the only reason i knew that? after their set was done, he walked right by me and he legit looked like him. it was scary. but oh well. the maine's set was amazing. johnny o looked amazingggg <333 he always looks good :] we were on garrett's side, so he looked at my friends and i a few times, which made me almost die. he's just so cute. i did manage to get some pictures, but people kept getting in my way too. one thing that i forgot to mention is that when people were taken out of the crowd from crowd surfing or something, they would come on our side and then stand right in front of me, but security would eventually tell them to get lost. some of them didn't move, but they did after a while when they noticed they were getting death glares from me and the two other girls. right before the maine went on, ann came over to where we were. she told me the crowd was brutal and that one of the girls we went with was getting dragged underneath everyone, which sucked cause she's like 3 inches smaller than me. and that's exactly why i hate being in the pit, but i do it anyway. the maine's setlist consisted of: Everything I Ask For, Girls Do What They Want, I Must Be Dreaming, Count 'Em One, Two, Three, The Way We Talk. i was in heaven :]

after the maine was done, i just chilled with ann and made friends with the security guards. the funny thing was they were trying to get everyone to push back cause we weren't even suppose to be far up on the barricade, but they eventually gave up cause they knew it wasn't gonna happen. when mayday came on, i was so happy. not only do i love mayday parade, but i knew that right after them all time low would be on :] mayday's set was amazing. from what i remember, their set was: Jamie All Over, Miserable At Best, Jersey, I'd Hate To Be You..., Black Cat, When I Get Home You're So Dead, and then i forgot the rest lol. Miserable At Best was so pretty. it was just derek on stage with his piano. i was legit crying...it's such a beautiful yet sad song :[ Black Cat was crazy awesome, and possibly my favorite mayday song ever. by the time their set was over, i was getting soooo excited for atl. not only was i excited, i had to pee like a motherfucker. i hadn't gone since i had left my house at 7. i was dying, but i didn't wanna even attempt to find the bathroom cause i knew i would never find my way back. so i decided to hold it, which was a very very bad idea.

before atl came on, they were playing blink 182, which brought such good memories. i loved and still love blink 182. a few minutes before atl came on, i spotted zack, and i almost died. at that point they were playing Who Let The Dogs Out? and i could see zack singing it, which made me laugh :] then when the lights went out? i wanted to die. this is how their set list went, idk it in exact order, so just bare with me lol.

Poppin Champagne, Holly (Would You Turn Me On?), The Girl's A Straight Up Hustler, Lullabies, Stay Awake (Dreams Only Last For A Night), Dear Maria Count Me In, Six Feet Under The Stars, Jasey Rae, The Party Scene, Coffee Shop Soundtrack, The Beach, their new song called The Promise, Remembering Sunday, Shameless, Break Out! Break Out!, and i think that's it lol.

when atl came out, alex was wearing glasses, and he looked uber good, as he always does :] when i realized how close we were to zack, i almost fainted. during poppin' champagne, ann and i were doing the dance, and we got some people's attention, which was the point :] zack looked at me a few times...i was in heaven :] some of the conversations that they had in between songs were epic. one of them included jack screaming I'D FUCK 98.7% OF YOU GUYS IN HERE! and i was like, oh jeez. that's jack for you though :] then jack was wearing this turkey had, which amused me the entire night. i couldn't get any good pictures cause people who were coming out of the pit were getting in my way...bitches. and then at one point jack was saying how he'd never seen a human vagina and how he'd only seen an animal's. ann missed both of those cause she was on the phone...ughh that's why i love them so much :] parents who were there with their kids were probably like, "what the fuck are they talking about?" i just find that stuff funny :] ann got a really good video of alex telling us how to fuck a deer...it was one of those things you had to hear in order to understand. then they went into The Girl's A Straight Up Hustler, and i cried. that's my legit favorite song...EVER. it was so beautiful. Stay Awake was epic, and it's my favorite song off of SWIR.

omg Lullabies? possibly one of the best songs i've heard live. as you all should hopefully know, they never do that song. ever. i was surprised when i was looking at the setlist and saw it on there. at that point i didn't know why they wouldn't play it often, but now i do. the song itself is based on a really touchy subject and tragic incident in alex's life. it's about his brother committing suicide. one of my friends was telling me before hand that he's been known to break down in tears during that song. so i was like, "oh god...poor thing :[" when they did it? it was so amazing. but during parts where he was singing, you could tell that was crying. it was sad, and was like monkey-see-monkey-do. as soon as he started crying, everyone else, including myself, starting crying. then their new song, The Promise, sounded exactly like Simple Plan song that i can't remember right now lol. it was still pretty, especially for it not being completely done :]

then Remembering Sunday was like how it always is. beautiful as ever. but this time, instead of it being just alex on stage by himself the entire song, the band came out when the song gets really heavy, which is right when juliet's part starts. then i noticed that zack didn't have his shirt on...i almost fell over cause i was screaming so hard. ughhh he has the nicest body i have ever seen up close. and i'm serious...we were pretty damn close to him. so i was in my own little heaven at the time :]

the last song they did was of course, Dear Maria Count Me In. the coolest thing about that was they shot out confetti, which i managed to catch :] and jack picked up alex and started running all over the stage with him on his shoulders...it was so cute :] Flyzick came out and was playing guitar which zack on his side. then jack put alex down, and then when alex was standing on the front of the stage, jack came over and made it look like he was licking alex in his private area lol. i was trying to get a picture of it, but some bitch decided to stand right in front of me. ughh i hate when people do that! after all was said and done, ann and i left and headed to the merch booth once again so she could get a sup buzznet shirt that i forgot to get her lol.

overall, waiting 10 hours in line was totally worth it. just next time we do that? i'm making sure it's at least 65 degrees outside instead of only 20-30 degrees lol.

here are some more highlights that went on during the day and night:

1. When we were waiting in line, Matt Flyzick (ATL's tour manager) walked right by us with his newly shaved hair. it looked really good on him lol

2. Me, Ann and Chelsea all signed The Maine's bus, which is what every fan is suppose to do :] ann also met Pat and got a hug and kiss from Johnny O (so fucking jealous) and kennedy :]

3. Derek from Mayday Parade walked right by us in line with his girlfriend. I guess they were walking down main street, which really isn't the safest place in the world lol

4. Like an hour after we saw Derek walk by, I saw Rian walk by us. normally i wouldn't think that Rian was a good looking guy. but if you see him up close? he's actually not that bad looking and he has a nice ass lol

5. We met the Friday Night Boys while we were waiting in line too :]

6. Some photographer asked to take a picture of our little group that was in line since 7 in the morning. We were all like, "Who is this for?" and he was like, "For All Time Low." and we were like, "Go right ahead and take the picture." nice :]

7. Bryan from Boys Like Girls was at the show obviously. When I went to see Anberlin there on Halloween, Chelsey, Chelsea, Laurel and I saw him walking around, and each time he had a different drink in his hand

8. During ATL's set, i could hear both jack AND zack singing. zack has such a good voice because he took singing lessons when he was younger and jack's voice is getting better :]

9. ZACK DYED HIS HAIR BROWN! it looks sooooooo good :] and i swear to god he got more tattoos on his back. cause when he turned around a few times (oh yes ;] ) i noticed that he had like what looked like a new tattoo...idk lol.

10. i think jack dyed his hair a little more brown. when he jumped into the crowd (yes, ann and i were less then 2 feet away from mr. barakat) it looked his hair had less blonde in it and it was spiked to the side. it looked good :]

11. Flyzick came on and sang "Are you having a good time sweetheart?" during The Girl's A Straight Up Hustler. so good :]

12. Alex looked at ann and i a few times when he came to our side of the stage...i swear i thought she was gonna have a heartattack.

13. Alex looks very, very, very good with brown hair. and glasses :]

well, those were the highlights of the day/night.

Next Concert: Jingle My Bells Feat. all time low, there for tomorrow, ace enders, valencia, the friday night boys, the color fred, the morning light, etc. on December 21st @ The Warner Theater in Torrington, CT. and we have amazing seats too...first section, middle row :] i NEED to meet them this time. the girl who selling me that JMB tickets said that it should be pretty easy to meet them there because they'll probably just be chilling around the venue. thank you god.

i need to desperately ask jack something. i wanna ask him, "Did you ever find your mom when you were at Disneyland?" i think it's epic.

plus, alex will be 21 by then :] so ann bought him a little shot glass that says 21! on it...it's so cute :]

ughh..i'm so sick now. waiting in line for 10 hours fucking killed me. and it didn't help much that i only got like 4 hours of sleep the night before. i really need to catch up on some sleep....and get rid of this fucking cold. and i also have no voice. even better lol.

but getting sick was all worth it in the end. thank you all time low for giving me the best night of my life :]

ughh doesn't zack's hair look so good? i like jack's hair too...and alex's hair is really growing on me now :]

peace <3

-olivia.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
I SEE ALL TIME LOW TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so excited...if you guys couldn't tell already :]

omg i'm pumped. i'm gonna seriously die when i meet atl. especially zack. i'm probably gonna faint and then die lol.

anyways, i gotta make this quick cause i'm heading off to school in a few minutes :[

plus my atl sleepover is tonight...i love my life!

  i'm gonna die when i meet these boys tomorrow. alright, now i really have to leave for school lol. :] -olivia.  

so...

hi :]

haha i'm just kidding. eww my spacebar is being wicked gayyy and not working. oh well. i'll deal with it.

anyways....it seems like everyday my life just keeps getting better and better. do you ever have those days where you feel like there's nothing that can go wrong in your life? well, i'm having one of those days right now. i love it so much. i've been getting along with my friends a lot better and i'm just in such a better mood lately. school has been a whole lot better for me. i don't know why, but it just is. and i'm certainly not complaining.

friday i might go see the academy is. chelsey and i were originally gonna go on wednesday, but there's no way we could get there, especially on a school night. and since boston really isn't the best place for two teenage girls to walk around by themselves at night. we were gonna take the train into boston, but neither of our parents are down for that. and honestly? i don't blame them. boston is just like every other city. creepy people. same old story. 

i'm gonna be pretty pissed if i have to miss that show...i desperately need to see hey monday, the academy is and we the kings. but if that doesn't work out? i still have all time low to look forward to in exactly TWO WEEKS wednesday :] i'm soooooo excited! like, i don't think anyone understands how excited i am. i'm finally gonna get  to meet the boys that i listen  to everyday in my car. ann already met them, but we're gonna actually get to hang out with them. ughh. i can't wait. not only are we gonna be hanging out with all time low? but we're gonna be hanging with the maine, every avenue AND mayday parade. that's just a party waiting to happen :]

i've pretty much been in love with the maine lately. i don't know how it happened...i just watched I Must Be Dreaming acoustic that the maine did for buzznet the other day, and it was just love. but it's definitely not a bad thing and i'm definitely not complaining about it :]

OMG i'm going to the Jingle My Bells Festival in December. i'm sooooo pumped cause all time low is gonna be headling that too! so when me, ann, chelsey and someone else go? it'll be the fourth time we'll be seeing them...this year alone. that's crazy shit right there. it's gonna be all time low, there for tomorrow, the color fred, the friday night boys, valencia, the morning light, and a few other bands that i can't remember right now lol.

other than all these concerts to look forward to, chelsey and i are going to see twilight on the 22nd. my brother is gonna take us cause he wants to see it. weird, i know. but who cares. i wanna see it sooo bad, especially since i've started reading the book again and i've fallen in love with again :] i've decided that i want a guy like edward...like for real. but none of the guys i know are like that. oh well. i can dream can't i?

now i'm just sitting here watching  gossip girl. my normal monday night routine. but i don't have school tomorrow, which is fantastic. and then i don't have school on friday because of the parent-teacher conferences at school. i offered paying my mom $5 to not go. but i don't think it's gonna work. whoop-de-fucking-do.

ann and i might hang out tomorrow, but idk now cause they sent her home early from work cause she was getting sick. but she said that we'll probably still hang out tomorrow.

peace :]

ahhhhh i love zack <3333

-olivia.

so...

my life's been pretty sick lately.

 i've been doing a lot better in school, my grades are finally starting to go up, i'm getting along with my parents better than ever before, and all the concerts i'm going to are coming up within a month or so :]

so last night me, ann and chelsey went to go see sexdrive. OMG it was hilarious! it was definitely the Superbad of 2008 :] since i love Superbad, i'm gonna be completely honest...it was sooo much funnier. plus? there was a little seriousness in the story line, which is something Superbad didn't have.

in exactly a month, tomorrow being October 26th, i will be seeing All Time Low, Mayday Parade, The Maine and Every Avenue on November 26th :] i'm so excited to FINALLY be able to meet the lovely All Time Low boys :] ughhh i can't wait! if anyone wants me ask them anything, nothing specific, ask me now or you'll never get a chance again :]

PLUS i may be seeing Cobra Starship again two days after i see ATL :] that'd be amazing if i got to see them again...cause last time i didn't even get to enjoy FTSK's set, which made me VERY upset :[ now i really really need to get my ass in gear and get my grades up at school. oh boy.

anddddd! i might be seeing The Academy Is, We The Kings and Hey Monday in November too! god i love November!

not only do i not have a lot of school? but it's when all the concerts are in town! i love it!

-olivia.

Next Concert (as of now)

Compromising of Integrity, Mortality and Principles in Exchange For Money Tour

November 26th- The Palladium, Worcester, MA

All Time Low

  The Maine

Mayday Parade

Every Avenue

so excited!!!

so i got the new Jack's Mannequin cd yesterday. i haven't listened to all of it yet, but what i did listen to, was absolutely amazing.

anyways...my life has been wicked awesome lately :]

next wednesday i'm going to see Cobra and Forever The Sickest Kids...talk about an awesome tour :]

then i have a little break in between concerts. boo :[

but then in November i'm seeing All Time Low, Mayday Parade, Every Avenue and The Maine...plus we're gonna get to MEET ALL OF THE BANDS :] it's only cause ann knows someone who's sister works at the venue where ATL is playing...so zack better be ready for me...just kidding :]

OH. speaking of all time low...ann and i dressed up like Alex and Zack during the Poppin' Champagne dance. i looked EXACTLY like zack, except for the fact that i'm a girl :] and i made ann the shirt that Alex wears in the video. people got jealous, which is exactly what we wanted to do :]

so i saw one of the shirts that they're gonna be selling as merch during the tour...and it's so fucking sick looking, and of course, it has to do with buzznet, which makes it even funnier :]

isn't that sick? i want it so bad. since ann, tasha and i are all going? we're all gonna get the shirt so we can match cause we're cool like that :]

oh, and alex's new myspace picture with his new hair? absolutely adorable and gorgeous :]

see? it's adorable :]

-olivia.

okay, this is a little survey just talking about random things in my life, and having to do with music :]

1. What was your first concert?

Spice Girls :]

i was seven years old. i was crying because my parents refused to tell me where we were going...but they told me they only did it as a surprise....ever since that day, i'm not a huge fan of surprises.   2. What was your last concert?   All Time Low @ Six Flags New England  

waiting in line for 4 hours in the heat was so worth it. we got front row on zack's side :]   3. What is your current favorite band? it's a tie...   Cobra Starship
    and
Forever The Sickest Kids



whenever i listen to both Cobra and Forever The Sickest Kids, i always wanna get up and dance :]   4. Who was your favorite band in middle school?   Fall Out Boy  

i don't care what anyone says...i'll always have a place for them in my heart :]   5. Who was your favorite band in elementary school?   Nsync  

not gonna lie...i still love them :]   6. If you could create the best looking band, who would you put in each position?   Singer: G-a-b-e Saporta     Guitar/Backup Vocals: Caleb Turman    
  Bass: Zack Merrick
 
Drums: "Nasty" Nate Navarro
  Keyboard/Piano: Andrew McMahon


7. Next concert you're going to?   The SassyBack Tour on October 8th :]   Forever The Sickest Kids     and Cobra Starship
 
8. What are some bands that you've never seen but want to?   The Cab
    Katy Perry


Metro Station

The Maine


Forever The Sickest Kids     only cause i missed them at Warped due to the fucking rain :[   9. What band puts on the best live show?   My Chemical Romance


out of the four times i've seen them, seeing them for the LAST time at Madison Square Garden was a dream come true for me and it was the best show i've ever seen in my life :]   10. What band sounds most like their CD live? Paramore  

for such a tiny girl, Hayley has the biggest voice i've ever heard in my life. plus, the band as a whole has an amazing stage presence :]   11. What band have you seen the most live? it's a tie...both four times a piece :]   My Chemical Romance     February 26,2007 at the Dodge Center, May 8,2007 at the DCU Center, August 24, 2007 at the Tweeter Center, May 9, 2008 at Madison Suare Garden   and   Fall Out Boy

December 13, 2005 at Tsongas Arena, March 17, 2006 at the DCU Center, June 2, 2007 at the Dodge Center and November 9, 2007 at the Tsongas Arena   12. What band has your favorite lyrics? All Time Low  
"I'll make your past regret it's future."   Forever The Sickest Kids
  "I can make you feel like the queen of the world but I won't. Cause you're full of imperfection."   My Chemical Romance


"I've lost my fear of falling, I will be with you."   13. What band made the best song for a movie? Cobra Starship- Snakes on a Plane  

the only band i love who's done a song for a movie...and it's a damn good one too :]   14. Who are your favorite musicians/actors? The Academy Is...  

they such a good job in TAItv :]   15. Who are you listening to right now? I Don't Know About You, But I Came To Dance- Forever The Sickest Kids :]  

16. What band/musician are you most excited to meet? All Time Low  

ughh...came so close to meeting them at Warped, but the fucking rain ruined everything. but i'll get another chance to meet them when i see them in November cause me and ann are gonna be rolling VIP style :]   17. What band influenced you the most? Cobra Starship

this is gonna sound really lame...but i listen to them whenever i work out. it just makes me wanna work out more!   18. What band would you kill to see reunite? Blink 182  

i fucking love them...if only they didn't all hate each other now.   19. What band/musician do you dream about constantly? Zack Merrick  

on the night before my first day of school, i had a dream that he fell in love with me. greatest dream ever...but then ruined by my alarm clock.   20. Who's the nicest band/musician you've ever met? Caleb Turman from Forever The Sickest Kids  

when we walked over to one of the stages, one of my friends and i noticed that Caleb was standing right by the sound booth watching one of the bands. then we didn't think it was him, but then we realized it was him because of his bright orange hair :] he was so nice and gave me a nice little rub on my back :] best day of my life.   hope you enjoy!

holy shit...i never update this thing. oh well :]

my life has been pretty fucking awesome lately. last thursday ann, chelsey and i went to Six Flags New England to see All Time Low. omg it was so amazing. we were in the front row on zack's side....ughh i love him. anyways, they were amazing live. it was so much better actually seeing their faces. at Warped, we got pretty much killed and had to move all the way to the back of the crowd. so it was nice to actually see them instead of just hearing their voices.

ann and i were gonna go see Katy Perry, who played the day after, but her mom refused to drive us home. my dad was gonna bring us there, but her mom didn't want to, like i said. but it was okay. at least we got to see All Time Low.

and todayyy i got my tickets to see All Time Low again on November 26th at The Palladium. which is good because the Worcester date wasn't on the presale site for a wicked long time....and now that it finally is? i took advantage of it and bought the tickets :]

plus i'm seeing Cobra Starship, Forever The Sickest Kids, and Hit The Lights on October 8th at the Webster Theater in Hartford, CT :] i really really wanna see The Academy Is and We The Kings there in November, but the only problem is that it's on a Friday night and we have to play at our school's football game...which is so stupid cause our team sucks. but then there's one two nights before at The Roxy in Boston, but it's on a Wednesday night...so there's no way my mom would drive me into Boston, especially on a school night. ughhh it blows major ass.

but other than that problem? my life is so awesome right now. i wouldn't change it for anything :]

and now i'm pretty much in love with Caleb from FTSK <3

so i'm sitting here watching The Black Parade Is Dead...

all i can say is just...wow. just wow.

it's fucking amazing. there we go. i just started watching it a few minutes ago, and i'm already loving it. it just brings back so many good memories from the 5 times i've seen them within the last year. and the incredible opportunity i had to see them perform their last show...possibly forever, at Madison Square Garden.

i'm getting goosebumps from watching it. that's saying something right there :)

so i haven't updated this thing in like...3 months. i completely forgot about this thing. my bad.

i'm out of school, which makes me uber happy. i went to Cape Cod for a few days with my mom and my friend for three days. it was really relaxing and so much fun. i love the Cape =] anyways, now i have a job at the Worcester School Department. the only reason i have this job is cause both my aunts work there and they needed summer help. if it weren't for them, i probably wouldn't be working there...if that isn't obvious already. i actually kind of like working there cause it's nice and air conditioned on the inside and the people are wicked nice to me =] plus, it pays really well. i get like 8 to 10 bucks an hour. i'm working 5 hours a day 5 days a week until the beginning of August, which isn't too bad cause i'll have all of August to enjot the rest of the summer.

plus, getting paid really well helps me cause i'm getting my license next month =]

with my first paycheck i really wanna get a new pair of Nike's. not just cause i really need a new pair of shoes...i didn't really tell my mom the exact reason i wanted a new pair.

you see, i'm going to Warped on July 23rd (yay!!!) and i wanted to get a new pair of Nike's to have Gabe sign them and the rest of Cobra =] if i got them signed by every band i meet at Warped they'll be the coolest shoes ever =] but hopefully i get to meet a lot of bands...cause that'd be the greatest thing ever.

hopefully i get that day off from work...i should be able to. so i shouldn't really have to worry too much.

wanna know some of the bands i'll be seeing at Warped? here's some of them, in case you didn't already know any of them.

1. Cobra Starship

2. We The Kings

3. All Time Low

4. Madina Lake

5. Forever The Sickest Kids and The Academy Is...

pretty sweet huh? yeah i thought so =]

so i'm really bored...i'm just sitting at the computer and listening to Metro Station =]

so it's official.

i'm definitely going to New York City to see MCR at Madison Square Garden.

i had to somehow convince my dad to go into the arena with me and tara. the only way she could go is if someone went in with us. my mom and i talked to him and he agreed to come in with us.

i'm so happy right now that words couldn't even express how i feel. i can't believe i talked my parents into this...i'm so good at persuading people to doing things i guess.

that weekend is definitely gonna be insane.

the first four days of May i'll be in Williamsburg, VA for a band trip, then i come back on Sunday. i go to school for the rest of the week. on Friday i'll go to school, leave around noon so me, tara and my parents can head to NYC and then go to the show at like 6. then Saturday we come home. then on Sunday i go see Panic.

crazy. but it's like the weekend i've always wanted.

plus, this is my only birthday present this year. but it is gonna be worth it. so fucking worth it. you know why? cause i'll get to see my 5 favorite boys and then on Sunday i'll get see my other 4 favorite boys.

i'm gonna be buying the tickets tomorrow most likely. the minute i have them in my hands, a hallelujah chorus is gonna be singing in the background. i will seriously guard these things with my life.

wow. i pretty much love my life right now.

this will be the fourth time i'm going to see MCR. but this time i'll get to see all of them, including my buddy Mikey.

=]

guess what...

I GET  TO SEE MCR AT MADISON SQUARE GARDEN IN MAY!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so excited.

even though i told my mom it'd be the only thing i want for my birthday, it's sooooooo fucking worth it. i mean hello? it's MC fucking R.

i cannot believe my plan actually worked.

shit. it still hasn't hit me yet.

this show is gonna be like no other.

that weekend of the show is gonna be the shit too. cause i'll go to New York, come home on Saturday and then on Sunday i go see Panic.

wow. my life is so completely awesome right now. i don't think you have any idea.

you really don't.

omg.

the new Panic video for Nine In The Afternoon? is soooo amazing. i love it. i think i've already watched it 3 times.

anyways, Paramore didn't win Best New Artist. i was pretty pissed at first, but then i realized that it's amazing that they even got recognized for something like. it's a huge honor and just shows how much hard work they've done to get where they are today. i'm so proud of them. and you know what? there's always next year.

ughh. i'm so tired. i wanna go bed. oh, and the wind is blowing really really hard, so it's probably not gonna make it any easier to fall asleep.

awesomeness.

-olivia.

damn. i realized i never update this thing. ever.

well, i am now. so that should count for something right? ok.

my life has been pretty boring. just hanging out with friends and stuff like that. i've been sick for a while...and it totally sucks cause i missed two days of school last week. and figures, the day i come back we have another lockdown.

our school should just be called  Oxford Lockdown School. really. it's kinda ridiculous now.

in music stuff, i got tickets to see Panic on the Honda Civic Tour on May 11th. i'm soooo excited. the last time i saw Panic was November 18, 2006. that's a looonnnggg time. plus their new cd will be out by then, so that makes me pretty excited.

i hate the whole waiting part though. but in a way, it's good cause it just gets me even more excited each day closer. so i guess it's not all bad.

and then i found out that Warped is coming to Boston on July 23rd, and i'm soooo happy. if i miss it this year, i'll be so mad. i've missed it three years in a row, and i CANNOT miss it this year. you know why? well, i'll tell you with two little words...

Cobra Starship.

yeah. they're gonna be there. and if i don't get to see them? omg i don't even know what i'll do.

oh yeah, it's gonna be Cobra, The Academy Is..., We The Kings, Gym Class Heroes and maybe Paramore. now that's like a dream concert right there. i need to go.

i asked my mom and she said that she'd think about it. but by then i'll be able to drive, the only thing is that i can't drive anyone until late August early September. plus, i have to get a fucking job this summer. not cool man. not cool at all.

-olivia.